-Crymzen

What have I been up to?  Well, since my last post I’m still doing the same and that is reading fan fiction.  Twilight fan fiction to be exact, no surprise there.  I’m really stuck on that smut.  A few of my favs which I’m not going to actually name incase someone that knows me does read this.  They might not understand the reasons why I would read these particular stories.  But, I can give a general description of why these stories appeal to me.  Basically, I like that Edward is human in them and that his character is usually around the age 27-35.  A more mature Edward.  And he’s very domineering, jealous, posessive and utterly sweet all at the same time, every thing I love in a man.  I know, I’m sick.  Beyond the fan fiction I’ve found a new author named Jill Mansell that I love.  She’s a British writer and her characters are cute, witty, silly, gals that have a few issues to work out before they are able to get on with the love of their lives.  It’s kindof a Bridget Jonesesque kind of writing.  I love British writers.  And for that matter I love almost everthing British.  I can’t wait to go to England some day.  I love their accents, there wit and sense of humour, their slangs.  If I really add it up, all my favorite bands and actors are British.  Sting,  Morrisey, Duran Duran, Led Zeppelin, Robert Pattinson, Muse, Pierce Brosnan, Ewan McGregor, just to name a few of my favorites.  Let’s see, what else have I been up to lately.  Well, my life has taken a major turn for the better.  My relationship with my husband has grown ten fold.  We’ve become closer than ever.  I’ve become more secure with my myself and my relationship with him.  I’ve come to some realizations.  Also, I’m feeling better physically, well as long as I stay away from the evening nips.  Wine is my drug.  But, I limit it to two on an occasion.  I’m still doing Yoga but now do it every day rather than twice a wk.  I have a routine that varies a bit that I do every morning that ends with sit-ups.  The sit-ups are the life saver for me.  I love having flat abs.  When I wasn’t exercising but still eating vegan I gradually gained the weight in my belly again.  The ab work is amazing at toning that area.  I’m still Vegan and it’s been almost a year now.  It’s very easy and I never go hungry.  I’m doing a great job at not snacking and only having popcorn for my evening snack.  And I’m limiting my sugar and not eating candy.  Oh, ok I slipped the other day but it was my first taste of candy in months.  Any way, I feel great and I’m doing quite well.  Just addicted to the internet and my favorite sites.  Now, if I can just get off here for now.  Be back soon…

-Crymzen

 The benefits is for my husband.  It makes me a sex addict & lunatic in bed almost willing to do anything to be fulfilled.  The not so benefits is it makes me think about “it” & Robward 24-7.  I feel like I “know’ him, “want” him.  And that’s soooo psycho!  That man is amazing!  And at this point it doesn’t even matter that he’s atleast 12 years younger than I am(can you imagine, “I’m going to be lusting over that 5 yr old in less than 20 yrs”, that would’ve grossed me out).  “The older seductress might be able to teach him a few things”.  Hell, he might be able to teach me a few things!  In my “wildest” dreams. 

 Well, atleast Mr. Crymzen is happy.  Don’t get me wrong, I am having my fantasies fulfilled by Mr. Crymzen but Robward is poisoning my thoughts day in and day out!  Damn Twifanfiction!  I love you!  And Mr. Crymzen doesn’t mind.  Atleast he doesn’t mind reaping the benefits of my lust filled fantasies.  Sorry, so out of control, can you tell?  Anyways, I don’t even know if I can complain or if that’s what I’m really doing.  I’ve been in this constant euphoria since I started reading this smut and it wasn’t until today that I started feeling absolutely out of control!  It was really those damn sexy vids of Rob on You Tube that probably did it, combined with the nasty, naughty FanFic.  I love it!  So, will I stop anytime soon?  Hell no!  I can’t!  It seems that every few months I’m realed back in to the RobSmut & It’s so much stronger than me.  Sorry Rob.  But, I can’t stop lookin’.  I can’t stop dreamin’.  Damn you for having an awesome smile, being so damn witty & down to earth.  Damn you for the most sensual makeout scenes ever!  The way you squint your eyes when you kiss.  Damn, damn, damn.  Why are you doing this to us, especially us middle aged women with hormones out of control!  We love you!  We’ll always have your back(or you can have ours).  Keep up the sexy looks.

A hot bowl of Soba noodle Miso soup

This is what I came up with for my recipe:  4 cups water, 1 cup soba noodles, 1/2 block firm tofu cubed, 3 tbsp miso, 1 clove garlic, 1tsp ginger, 1 small carrot thinly sliced rounds, 2 green onions chopped, 1/4 c fresh baby spinach chopped.

Boil the noodles for the reccomended time on the package.  Bring 4 cups of water to a boil and add the garlic and ginger; simmer for 6-8 min.  Strain the broth to remove the garlic and return broth to pot.  In the meantime prepare fresh veggies.  In a small bowl, stir together the miso with 3 tbsp of the hot soup broth(adding the miso to the pot and cooking it reduces it’s healthy attributes, to avoid this we mix seperately).  Stir until miso is smooth.  Add the soba noodles and tofu to broth and simmer for 2 min.  Spoon into bowls and pile veggies on top.  makes 2 large servings. 

My husband and I really enjoyed this for a late night dinner.  It was easy to prepare and good for you too.  And of course it’s vegan friendly.

So, on to the movie.  As my friend Sarah said countless times last night, Little Ashes was “phenomenal”.  All the actors out did themselves, it was very well done.  It gave me a new outlook for Salvador Dali’s art and him as a person.  They portray him as being very outspoken, and a high achiever that goes for what he wants and nothing will stop him.  I think in order to paint the amazing and complex art like he did you had to be a little intellectually crazy.  Dali was extremely intelligent and his artwork was ahead of it’s time. 

Federico Lorca & Salvador Dali

Ah, the love story of Little Ashes.  It was a heartbreaking romance.  Federico Lorca knew there was something special about Dali.  It seemed that he fell in love with this eccentric, feminine, introverted young man quite easily.  And as Dali noticed Federico’s attractions he also fell quite easily.  They had a beautiful romance with art and poetry and a beach cottage with lazy days at the shore.  But, to consummate the relationship was conflicting for Dali.  I believe he loved Lorca but he also “needed” the love.  He seemed to be very lost as a young man.  And then of course came his drive to further himself and be famouse for his art.  And that drive sent him to Paris and leaving Lorca in heartbreak.  Lorca sent Dali many letters that went unanswered.  Soon, Dali returned to Madrid and announced that he had found his “twin”.  A woman named Gala that he had to have.  She would complete him and help him to further his career.  Of course Lorca was crushed.

Lorca decided to accept Dali’s invitation to meet Gala and I’m sure with the need and curiosity to see Dali again, although it was against his better judgement.  Dali appeared very changed to Lorca.  He had become extremely arrogant and was convinced that he and Lorca should work together.  Also, he was hoping that Lorca may have some interest in Gala.  You see, Dali and Gala had an open relationship, you might say they were “swingers”.  But, Lorca was not interested and possibly was disgusted.  He had once loved Dali and it was lost now. 

Lorca went on to spread the word of freedom of self.  And it was not well received by the Nationalists.  Even though he had many supporters he was tragically executed and killed in 1936 at the age of thirty-eight.   

Today, García Lorca is honored by a statue prominently located in Madrid’s Plaza de Santa Ana. Political philosopher David Crocker reports that “the statue, at least, is still an emblem of the contested past: each day, the Left puts a red kerchief on the neck of the statue, and someone from the Right comes later to take it off. 

Statue of Federico Lorca in Madrid

All in all it was a beautiful but tragic love story that left me feeling a new renowned respect and understanding for Salvador Dali and Federico Lorca.  Maybe in another place and time they could’ve had their love.  It’s still painful to see people being torn apart because of others opinions on who you can and can not love.  Love is beautiful whether it’s between a man and a woman, two men or two women.  It’s love and that’s all that should matter.

A handsome Dali

Spoken from a true romantic.

Little Ashes is a story starting in Madrid in 1922 where the artist Salvador Dali  goes to university and meets Federico Garcia Lorca a poet and Luis Bunuel.  They become an inseperable trio.  As time passes Salvador feels a connection to Federico and they become very close.  Soon after Federico leaves for Paris to further his career.  Some years later Dali and Lorca meet up again in Madrid and Dali shows coldness toward Lorca.  Frustrated by this, Lorca becomes absorbed in his writing and politics.  In 1936 Lorca is killed by the Nationalists at the outbreak of the Civil War.  Dali continues his career as a succesful artist in Paris.  http://www.littleashes-themovie.com/ 

From what I’ve read about the relationship between Dali and Lorca, it seems to me that Lorca felt that their time together was betrayed and forgotten by Dali when he returned to Madrid.  I feel that Lorca was the victim here.  You know me, always going for the underdog.  So, in a nutshell this movie focuses on a heartbroken romance. 

Federico Garcia Lorca and Salvador Dali

I will report again after my viewing this weekend.

“How To Be” is about Art.  Not the arts but Arthur better known as Art.  Art’s a frustrated musician who’s girlfriend just broke up with him because she really doesn’t see the relationship going anywhere.  Or better yet, she doesn’t see Art going anywhere.  He fights with all he has to keep her, to no avail.  So, Art moves back home with his less than thrilled parents.  His father basically ignores him and his mother never has anything kind to say and is too busy to associate with him.  No wonder Arts depressed right?  So, he goes to see his two best chaps, Ronny and Nikki and they aren’t much different.  Ronny is an agoraphobic  who has his own set of issue and wants to start a band with Art and Nikki.  But, it doesn’t seem to get much further than their patio. 

 Art decides to go to the book store to find a self help book.  And that’s when he comes across Dr. Levi Ellington’s book “It’s Not Your Fault”.  Using his inheritance money, Art decides to hire Dr. Ellington to move in with him at his parents home and be a full time life coach. 

It’s really a sort of dark humor and sometimes quite painful watching Art go through his crisis.  And you come to learn that he’s very draining on everyone around him.  Also I don’t think he’s really that depressed he just needs to come full circle with his issues and find himself. 

So, all in all I give this movie a total thumbs up.  I can’t wait to see it again!

My pinwheel quilt for my oldest child.

 Each quilt was made with the childs color themes in mind.  The pinwheels fit my oldest child well.  Her room is done in purples and lime greens that match perfectly.  The next quilt was made for my middle child.  The yellow and pink tones that I chose reminded me of her blond hair and rosy complexion.The sunny yellow and rose colors match my daughter perfectly. 

And lastly, the valentine quilt made for my youngest child.  I love valentines day and red, pink and hearts have always been my favorites.  So, she got a heart themed room.  And here is my very first quilt, a valentine quilt.